There are things I want to say. Things of pain and trauma and deep unrelenting ache. But I am forbidden to mention them because of the nature and involvment. It shreds my soul inside, but I would not suffer a lamb on the cutting board with bitchery of flaws. It is indecent. It is an act of love.

I have spent some time viewing unhappy things on the net, and completely ridiculous things as I am normally wont to do with my connection time.

Though it's too late now if you haven't, from Monday the 20th 12:01, till midnight Teusday Blizzard.com was accepting applications for Diablo 2 beta testers. It is an open beta test and 1000 or so people, maybe more will be chosen and sent the limited software to play. Just the waiting for this game has been a nightmare, but the chance to be one of the very first to play it could wash those troubles away.

With the incident of the murder of a 6 year old student by her classmate, there have been stupid things said by ignorant people (like he's as much a victim as she is. let's take a closer look at that shall we? He's still breathing, and she's 6 feet under. Where is the comparison in that?) and an in depth look of what's going on here. I've found places that talk about M V M O (multiple victim, multiple offender)cases wherein one student comes forward, or their parent comes forward with accusations and then suddenly there are 20-30+ students saying similar things. I've read where completely innocent people have gone to jail because a town had a vendetta, or one parent had a bad day or one parent was a complete psychotic schitzophrenic. No evidence of any kind but on few cases and it is all circumstantial (such as a genital injury that was portrayed as evidence of molestation or violation, yet it was a very light injury that can be and had been proven as caused by poor hygiene or other situations not related to sexual abuse), evidence to the contrary even, yet these people still go to jail. A 76 year old woman went to jail, she was finally released to die at home with family, while her sister/daughter whoever remained there and was denied parole when the time came. In more than one case, evidence which would save the defense, has been deliberately suppressed because the judge is an idiot.

Like the Memphis Three, there is much evidence to support the theory that the father of one of the three dead boys did the murder. They say he killed his wife too, but so far no one has looked at him even sideways. There was evidence that it was not either of the three boys they have convicted of this crime was the perpetrator of the bite marks found on the boys' bodies. There was lots of other evidence, blood, DNA, hair fibers, clothing fibers and that was subsequently "lost" by the idiots in that town who were handling the case.

I found alot of information about this and many other related things on a website that is for religious tolerance and unearths the follies and shortcomings of stereotypical Christians. Such as one "Letter To Witches" written by a Dr. Robert A Morey. Very shortsighted and small minded. I was driven to try and find an email address to response, but cooled when I saw that some people had already responded. But here's a link to my personal response.

I am drained and running out of thought. It would be better in a few days, I hope. These things I cannot talk about weigh on me and the solution is not in my hands.